To say that this summer has been a little difficult would be like saying Moses took the Israelites for a little walk in the wilderness. Although I won’t dwell on the details in this blog post, the past three months have been the most trying of my adult life.

GrandPa's Funeral - Military Honors

During finals week for the Spring semester, I rushed to California to care for my grandfather. (I wrote about that here.) Although that was difficult, it was good to be able to see my grandfather. My father joined me on this trip, and I’m thankful for the time we had to talk in the car and at my Grandfather’s cabin. The day before I left I was able to have a long talk with my grandfather in the hospital as we were arranging for hospice care. I am so thankful that I had that opportunity before he passed away. Although I missed a summer class I had registered for to make this trip, that is a small price to pay to connect with family at such a crucial time.

I returned home – but it was less than a week before my grandfather passed away. Due to the generosity of my father, Lisa and I were able to fly out to California for my grandfather’s funeral. For many reasons, that was a very difficult process. It was good to see family and friends again, but this wasn’t the type of reunion one desires.

Once Lisa and I returned to Dallas, I turned my attention towards catching up on all the work that I had let slide with my responsibilities at church as well as preparing for my Hebrew summer class that would be starting in a couple of weeks. But God wasn’t done with us yet! I was excited and nervous to be preaching my first sermon at my home church. I was sitting at a local coffee shop the Saturday before I was supposed to preach doing some last minute preparation. Then came the dreaded phone call.

Lisa, in tears, told me that we needed to rush Anja (my 8 year old daughter) to the emergency room. I packed up, and drove straight home. To make a very long story short, that sermon I was preparing for was one that would never be preached. We spent several days in the hospital with Anja, going through test after test. She is home now, although we have a long road ahead of us concerning her health and treatment plan. I will fill in those details in a subsequent blog post. (Promise!)

Now I’m looking at the calendar and seeing that the Fall semester begins in three weeks. Where has my summer gone? Both classes I had planned on taking had to be withdrawn from as a result of all that has happened. This could result in my graduation from DTS being delayed a full year, but time will tell. Although this is a summer that I never wish to repeat, even now I can see the lessons God has been teaching us as well as how we have been fundamentally changed as a result. I don’t think we ever will have an answer as to “why” God allows what He allows…But I do know I can trust Him through it all!

It was a long drive to California, but we made it in one piece! With one three hour exception, I did all the driving. Not sure why, as I’m not a big fan of being behind the wheel. We arrived at my grandpa’s cabin ahead of schedule. The area is breath-taking. There were a couple of things that I hadn’t accounted for, however…

I packed with a Southern California trip in mind. I neglected to add in the 8,000+ feet of elevation that have a slight cooling effect on temperature. It’s a wee bit chilly! The other thing I neglected to consider was the availability of cellular coverage and wireless up on the mountain. I have discovered that there is none at all. I’m taking this as a good thing. I brought some Hebrew to drill as well as some reading for my thesis. I’ll be making the most of the situation. That said, if any of you are needing to contact me, you will be unable to do so. I encourage you to contact Lisa, and she can get word to me via my grandfather’s land line.

The image attached to this posting is what I discovered awaiting me once my phone was able to acquire a data signal. When I drove up the mountain yesterday, I had nothing there to read or respond to – now…Wow. Y’all must really love me! I have a limited amount of time down here as I need to get back up to grandpa, but I will respond to as many messages as possible. Thanks for your understanding!

Concerning Grandpa – I would appreciate your prayers. He is not doing well. He hasn’t eaten in nearly a week and is drinking very little. We are encouraging him to eat, but he is being stubborn at this point. He is spending most of his time sleeping. When he is awake he is alert and lucid, but desires to return to sleep right away.

Concerning finances – A bit of trouble. This trip is costing us two weeks of lost income. I just discovered that due to poor communication, our account has hit the negative. Thanks to the joy of bank fees, an additional $125 of money was lost. Please pray for provision and opportunity during this time! I wasn’t expecting that to happen as we were in decent shape when I left, but I hadn’t communicated our financial state to Lisa and she assumed some funds were available for groceries and other necessities. FYI, I hate money. I hate the love for it that corrupts, and I hate the lack of it that inhibits. Lisa and I have been debt free for nearly four nears now, and that has been marvelous. It’s things like this that make me seriously question my commitment to finishing this program and just find a “real job” as the four jobs I’m juggling right now obviously don’t cut it. But I don’t think it would be God honoring for me to flush the 100 hours of grad school I’ve already completed down the toilet. God didn’t call us here for me to return to Human Resources…

Thanks for your prayers – for my grandpa, for my family, and for my attitude and calling.

God is faithful – even when it appears He’s not! (The problem is with my perception, not His character)

Quick update and prayer requests.

My grandfather on my father’s side has had a series of recent health problems. From an email I received today, it sounds as though he is in rapid decline. Although my aunt is there at the moment to help care for him, she is unable to do so and desperately needs help.

I will be taking my last final tomorrow. I am making arrangements to fly out to California to help my aunt and to be with grandpa while I still can.

Please pray – specifically for the following:

• That I will be able to fly to CA and back. (Anyone have frequent flier miles they are willing to offer?)
• That I will be able to serve my family and be a blessing during this difficult time.
• That grandpa will have lucid moments so that I can have meaningful conversation with him, show him pictures of his great-grandkids, etc.
• That needs will be met! In order to do this, I will be taking time off from work both at church and on campus. Through God’s grace we have enough money to pay rent for May, but we have a handful of bills as well as a summer tuition payment that needs to be made ASAP. My time away from work will hurt. God is faithful, and I believe my priorities are straight.

Thank you for your prayers, and I’ll keep you all updated!

I received an email from my ex-wife this evening that struck me to the core. I am thankful for the healing that God has granted in our relationship in recent years, but I am currently falling far short of the standard that has been set for me in the eyes of both my ex-wife and my oldest daughter.

I was going to write a bit more about the situation and what I am wrestling with, but I think it would be best for me to leave this entry simply as a plea for prayer. Please pray that God would give me wisdom, and that He would provide me with guidance. My desire is to “walk the walk” so that, as was discussed in my previous blog post, I might be able to be used by God to point others to Him. I don’t want to be a distraction from His glory!

Our experience at Pine Cove Family Camp was like nothing we have ever experienced before. We left our apartment after an intense season of Greek, a move across town into a place that is smaller than half the size of our previous home, and complete and total stress. God in His sovereignty definitely had a hand in bringing us to Pine Cove when He did!